Friday, July 2, 2010

I would like to turn a corner


I would very much like to leave the sorrow of the first half of this year behind me now, and move on to a period that is, at the very least, uneventful.

Last week, I lost my very dear friend, my confidante, Dean's beloved aunt and godmother, Lori. She was killed as a result of a gas explosion in her home; the resulting fire leveled the place. Her wonderful daughter, our niece Hallie, is getting married at the end of this month -- she's going ahead with the wedding because Lori would have wanted that, and because I think having something, something happy, to keep her occupied is helping in some way to navigate through this grief.

I don't know how common propane tanks are in the rest of the U.S. or elsewhere in the world. For homes built in areas where there are no natural gas pipelines, one can choose to have propane gas tanks to fuel a gas stove, a hot water heater, and sometimes the heating system for a home. We don't have any kind of gas in our home; Ken has always been steadfastly against it.

But it's common in New Hampshire, where Lori lived. PLEASE -- if you or anyone you know has any kind of gas service at home, remember that if you even think you might smell gas just leave immediately (don't touch anything!) and call the fire department. Feel foolish if you must, but be safe. Don't dismiss it, don't wait until tomorrow to have it checked out.

Lori was effusive and generous with her love. She never, ever missed a chance to say, "I love you!" and if you managed to be the one to say it to her first she'd reply, "I love you more!" She was kind, thoughtful, thorough, and brave. She'd been through so very much in her life, and all of it made her stronger. She didn't waste time on regrets or indecision. She never missed a birthday or holiday.

There will never be another like her.

7 comments:

Lesley said...

That's just awful, Jen.
Hoping the second half of this year will be a huge improvement.
Lots of hugs to you.

Julie said...

Jennifer, before I even turned on the computer this morning, I kept thinking about you and wondering how you were getting along....This just really saddens me, to see that you have experience another significant loss. But I have faith that you will be okay. I can already feel it in the tone of this post....I'd like to send you a warm hug of friendship and tell you I'm sorry....Julie
p.s. The picture of the two of you is wonderful. I'm glad you have that.

Natalie said...

I am sorry.

Laura Jane said...

Oh, Jennifer, what tragic and appalling news.

I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious friend. On top of the other losses you have experienced so recently it is a bitter blow.

Oh, my dear, I wish I could wrap you in a hug.

I'm thinking of you x

orchidlover said...

I am so sorry for all of you Jen. I know no words will help so just be aware that my love and thoughts are with you

Love and hugs to you all Gina xx

Garnered Stitches said...

Jen, sending love and hugs.
best wishes

Sam I Am said...

Oh my gosh Jennifer..how horrible!!
Im soooo sorry for your loss. Im sending up prayers for you and her family...
xoxox
sandy